Fiat mihi secundum verbum tuum.

This moment is a unique gift from God.

The world has never been this way before, and it will never be this way again.

The actions that you take in this moment affect the world. As did the actions you will take next, and those you did before.

Despite this truth, we frequently deceive ourselves into believing that we are stuck forever in the same circumstances. That we can never change. We trap ourselves with this deception, then use it to trap or harm others.

A miracle took place about 2000 years ago, which proved this deception false, and began the gradual demolition of all human institutions founded on falsity.

It is in the moment of Christ’s resurrection miracle that we entered spiral time. The eternal return is defeated and death is no more.

Written in April 2024 as a meditation for a new (or very old) way of being.

This piece condenses discoveries from a line of questioning on acting, working and founding companies on Christian principles that started in 2022, leading up to and following the baptism of my son Homer and dovetailing with my conversion journey to Catholicism. I’ve always felt God calling me to build a stable family with a wife and many children, and I long questioned why God didn’t provide an easy pathway for me. When I was deciding to baptize Homer or not, I read many books, talked to many friends and faith leaders and prayed fervently. Through learning to lead as a father to Homer, and learning to create stability despite the many challenges created by my ex-wife Sinclaire, God brought me to questions that I wouldn’t have otherwise considered.

There are two works that were key inspirations for me during this time, Joseph Ratzingers “Eschatology: Death and Eternal Life” and Rene Girard’s “Evolution and Conversion.” I gifted or recommended these books to several friends during 2024, and quotes from these books anchor my other writings on time from this period.

Thanks to several friends Mike Gibson, Brennie Pelligrini, Keegan McNamara, Nick Alexander, Trevor Merrill, and Tobias Huber who served as conversation partners in late March 2024 as I was testing ideas relevant to this piece. I should be clear that they mostly took and take positions opposite to my own, and so the above should not be considered to be their views (although less so with Trevor). I did share the writing mid-year 2024 with most of them, and am always grateful for their feedback. I also left a “Fiat mihi secundum verbum tuum” on one of Keegan’s Mythic computers during a visit to his workshop, as a prayerful mark and conversation starter on the importance of faithful work. I find the level of craft and care that Keegan embeds in his work to be deeply inspiring, despite our different theological views. I value all of their friendships, and continue to pray for them and try to guide them to the deepest depths found in Christ’s gift of being.